Mothers Day

Mothers day has always been special to me, not only because I'm a mother but because I HAVE an amazing mother.

She is the mom I know most children dreamed they had, and daughters wished they could be.

She is caring, funny, a good cook, an amazing baker, and great leader when she is called upon.

I remember when I was younger waking up in the middle of the night from bad dreams and somehow she was always there to calm my fears.

Whenever I had a fever her hands were always cool or warm when I had the chills. 

She always knew when something was wrong with me even if I didn't want to talk about it, her response to me was always "pray about it and God will give you an answer"

I know for a fact that she spent many hours in prayer herself about me and not just because I was going through something. 

I wasn't exactly a golden child and looking back now I wonder how she ever made it through my life with out having a nervous breakdown. 

I can remember walking past her bedroom and hearing her pray, or waking up, seeing the lights on in the living room and finding her reading her bible. 

I often wonder if I'll be as amazing as she was/is. 

Another reason mothers day is so special to me is because of my three absolutely beautiful amazing children. 

My handsome Johnnie, my beautiful Lyss, and my sweet little monkey. 

 Taken Oct 3rd 2011, Johnnie 7 Alyssa 4 Lukas 3 months

They are such a blessing to me! 

They have changed my life for the better and everything I do is for them. 

Every decision I make I always have them in mind wondering how much my choices will impact them later in life.

Each of them are a miracle in their own way

Especially my monkey.

May 8th 2011 I thought I was losing him. 

It started off like any other day but this day was mothers day.

I went to church feeling really good but half way through I noticed I hadn't felt him move all morning. Usually in the morning was when he was super crazy.

I went home and ate hoping it would do something, waited an hr but nothing happened. That's when I started to feel tiny twinges of pain shooting across my stomach then I felt a sudden gush. I ran to the bathroom and found I was bleeding. I calmly called my OB and the told me to meet them at Strong as soon as I could get there. I called John (who was working in Rochester (we still lived in Buffalo)) and told him he needed to pick me up and we had to meet my dr at triage. In the 2 hours and 40 mins it took for John to pick me up and drive to Strong the tiny sharp twinges became full fledged contraction like pains. 

Long story short he was much lower then he should have been at 30 weeks and I had already started dilating. After being there for a few hours they sent me home after shooting me up with steroids telling me to come back in 24 hours for more,

and now I have this amazingly healthy beautiful 10 moth old

I said all that to say this. God has worked so many miracles in my life and to take my babies for granted and not to be the mother they need is a pretty stupid move on my part. 

I pray every day that I will be what they need me to be and that God will direct me on the path that makes me a better mother. 

Love you kiddies very much! 

Taken April 9th 2012, Johnnie 7 Alyssa 5 Lukas 9 months